[Un]realistically speaking.

On the bus, on my way to school. I closed my eyes and let my mind wander off and my imagination took over.

Maybe I'm watching too much TV; too much Heroes. My imagination brought me to my past. I had a vivid image in my mind, that I had bent the space-time continuum and met myself when I think I was 12...
And so I gave myself a list, a list that would change my current self.

1. Do well in school. Don't slack like I did back in high school. Mom said that if I did well, she'll get me a car [which is one step closer to getting the girl, and you will know who that is soon enough.] SO DON'T DISAPPOINT ME!
   
2. Do not skip a year of post-secondary. Apply for it right when grade 12 ends.
3. Apply for UofT Scarborough campus and it's IMPERATIVE that you get into UTSC.
   
4. Apply for PCW. Work at FX for three years straight. DO NOT go for any girls no matter HOW attractive you think they are. You will just be disappointed. Just wait until the third year. You will then meet #18. You will know who that is when the time comes. F____ will help you in realizing what #18 means.
   
5. DO NOT give up on her. She may be hard but she'll be worth it over the mistake I did.
6. WATCH THE LEAFS. BECOME A HARDCORE FAN OF THE LEAFS.
7. Get Leafs tickets from your uncle and invite #18 as much as you can to those games.
8. I think I covered everything you need to know about our future. Don't screw up! I will definitely come back for you if you do!
9. This is ALSO IMPERATIVE. You must, AT ALL COSTS, keep Frank away from "the bitch". You will know who she is when you see her.

My train of thoughts blurred as a firetruck screamed passed the bus and realized that my stop was just around the corner. But thinking back to all these thoughts; this "list". Am I slowly going insane? Have I become obsessed with my mistakes? Is this a sign of regret?

But I'm afraid it's true. I'm still regretting every moment of it. I just wish I can go back in time and fix the damage I've done...